A fitting shot for the twilight of 2016. Back in March the Big T and I watched the sun set behind the Hunua Ranges, from the old pier at Thames, NZ. Image: Su Leslie, 2016
Like many people, I won’t be sorry to see the back of 2016.
It’s hard to know where to start with how bloody awful the year has been. From “surprise” political events that in hindsight should have surprised no-one, to the sickening disregard for human life engendered by wars and terror attacks, greed, hate crimes and the general apathy of those for whom “I’m alright Jack” has become a frighteningly de-humanizing mantra.
In my own world, it’s been a year of loss and fragility, frustration and feelings of helplessness. In August we lost the Big T’s mother to cancer and dementia, and we watch in sadness as his father slides into a distant space created by the same disease. My mother — the youngest of the boy-child’s grandparents — turned 80, and each day I shuffle the emotions of gratitude for my parents’ continued health, with worry over every cold, pain and doctor’s appointment.
October: a quiet afternoon at Otarawao Bay, Mahurangi Regional Park, NZ. Image: Su Leslie, 2016
That’s when I’m not pitting my gratitude at living in relatively peaceful New Zealand against my helplessness at being too far away from my brothers and mother to help them through the challenges and crises they are enduring.
Throughout the year this blog has been an outlet for my tangle of emotions, and provided — in you, the wonderful online whanau (1) — frequent comfort, humour, wisdom and that all too necessary sense of just not being alone in this.
Looking back over my posts in 2016, it’s clear that art, nature, food, music and my boys are the bricks and mortar of my life (though not necessarily in that order).
So here’s my retrospective; words and images that I hope capture some of the stuff that occupied my days and my mind in 2016.
January
From Art and Optimism, January 2016. Chris Moore, ‘Bird Songs’ (painted steel, corten steel, stainless steel). Seen at Sculpture in the Gardens 2015, Auckland Botanic Gardens, New Zealand. Image: Su Leslie, 2016
Before you know it! Re-creating the shot isn’t as easy when the boy-child is almost as tall as his father, and less willing to play “hands on head”. Image: Su Leslie, 2016
The Big T and our boy-child, Jan 1999 on the beloved Katana. Image: Su Leslie
Bees pollinate around one third of food crops eaten by humans, yet we persist in using agricultural practices that are harmful to bees. Where’s the love here? Image: Su Leslie, 2016. On Love and Failing Nature.
“I’m so tough, I kick sand in my own face.” The Big T after a mountain-bike ride. Image: Su Leslie, 2016. Portraits #2
A part of my life for 30 years, the Big T still makes me laugh; “I’m so tough, I kick sand in my own face.” From Portraits #2, ZimmerBitch, April 2016
May
Ironic juxtaposition? ‘What Makes a Real Aussie?” poster showing 1916 ID photo of Monga Khan from Afghanistan. Image: Su Leslie, 2016. From Facing up to New Faces.
May was NZ Music Month, and with this tiny country’s brilliant and extensive back-catalogue to trawl, I managed to post frequently. I like pretty much everything I wrote around some songs that I love, so my pick for the month is based on my admiration for the Australian artist Peter Drew, and his campaign What Makes a Real Aussie? At a time when the number of displaced persons in the world is at all-time high, raising awareness of the value of ethnic diversity and compassion has never been more important. In my postFacing up to New Faces, I included a clip of the Dave Dobbyn Song ‘Welcome Home’, which I’m also adding here.
In October I travelled to Whanganui to visit my father and do a glass-making course. On the way I stopped by Lake Taupo at Tokaanu. The post “… how do you find where you belong?” recorded that stop. The title was inspired by this song by Eva Prowse with the band Fly My Pretties:
Thank you for sharing all of those great memories, glimpses into your world, and reminders of your wonderful posts from 2016. Many best wishes Su to you and your family for 2017.:-)
I still love those pictures of the boys on the bike! Was that really posted in February? Time flies. While I agree about the general horrificness of 2016, personally it has been pretty good celebrating John turning 60 and Mum 90. All the best for 2017 to you.
Thanks Anabel. Yes it is hard to believe the boy is nearly 10 now. This New Year he is at a music festival with friends — a rite of passage if ever there was one! All the best to you and yours for 2017. It’s barely 5 hours away here.
Great post, Su. It was wonderful to look back at some of your favorite photos and posts. And we can all just hope that 2017 will be better, but I wish I was more optimistic about that becoming reality, at least here in the US. At least you get to bring in the new year in warm weather, long days, and flowers!
Thanks Amy; I also wish I felt more optimism for the future. But it’s true: I get to celebrate new year in warm weather — right next to a beautiful beach, celebrating the marriage of an old university friend. I’m holding this as a good sign for 2017. Happy New Year to you and your family.
I loved this retrospective, Su. It’s interesting to look at the mood and flavour of each month in the year that passed – and more importantly, how it affected us.
Best wishes, Su. I’m prepared to be optimistic about 2017 in spite of all the evidence to the contrary 🙂
Thank you Joanne. I’m also trying to focus on the positive, look for the good I can do — and remember to pick my battles! I hope you and your boys are all well — injuries healing and health restored.
This is such a wonderful, lovely personal retrospective and I enjoyed so much rereading every entry again! It’s amazing how time passes by and somehow I realize this more forcefully reading another one’s thoughts than when recapitalizing my own. If that makes any sense… xxxxxxxx
Thank you so much. I totally understand that; we are so enmeshed in day to day life that we can see the big picture best through other people. I went to a wedding on New Year’s Eve of a very old friend. I was surrounded by people I have known for 30 years. That those boisterous students I first met have now married, become parents (and even grandparents). That puts my life into perspective in the way you are talking about. xxxxx
I have enjoyed different. Bloggers share their round up post / and for some reason I don’t remember indulging like this any other January – I did recall some review posts in years past – but nothing like what this last week has brought me –
Anyhow – the recreation on the bike – I kept comparing and so fun – love the shirt you found – mature replica of that onesie –
And I remember that sourdough starter post! Glad it made the list.
Lastly – thought I’d only listen to a few seconds of the first song – but what a song
“Made a place for you now…”
“Welcome home”
Damn! Good.
Happy New Years to you, Su. May 2017 be full of joy and happiness.
Leslie
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Thank you Leslie. I wish the same for you.
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Thank you for sharing all of those great memories, glimpses into your world, and reminders of your wonderful posts from 2016. Many best wishes Su to you and your family for 2017.:-)
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Thank you Amanda. My very best you you and your family for the new year also.
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Lovely retrospective. May 2017 be a good year for you – and maybe even bring peace…
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Thank you Maureen. I think the wish for peace is going to be very widespread this year.
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I think you will be right
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Happy 2017 Su, I truly enjoy visiting you each day. 🙂
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Hay New Year to you Terry. I sincerely hope that 2017 will be a year of recovery for you, and that you and Gary know much joy and fulfilment.
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Thank you dear! 🙂
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I still love those pictures of the boys on the bike! Was that really posted in February? Time flies. While I agree about the general horrificness of 2016, personally it has been pretty good celebrating John turning 60 and Mum 90. All the best for 2017 to you.
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Thanks Anabel. Yes it is hard to believe the boy is nearly 10 now. This New Year he is at a music festival with friends — a rite of passage if ever there was one! All the best to you and yours for 2017. It’s barely 5 hours away here.
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Thank you for sharing your beautiful photographs! Wishing you and your family a Happy New Year!
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Thank you Inese. Nga Mihi Nui — best wishes — to you also.
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Thank you! 🙂 Athbhliain faoi mhaise duit!
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Perfect pictures!
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Great post, Su. It was wonderful to look back at some of your favorite photos and posts. And we can all just hope that 2017 will be better, but I wish I was more optimistic about that becoming reality, at least here in the US. At least you get to bring in the new year in warm weather, long days, and flowers!
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Thanks Amy; I also wish I felt more optimism for the future. But it’s true: I get to celebrate new year in warm weather — right next to a beautiful beach, celebrating the marriage of an old university friend. I’m holding this as a good sign for 2017. Happy New Year to you and your family.
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All the best for 2017 to you and yours, Su!
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Thanks Sue. My best wishes to you also.
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Thanks, Su!
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A very creative 2016 – all the very best for the same in 2017.
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Thank you so much. all the best to you also.
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I loved this retrospective, Su. It’s interesting to look at the mood and flavour of each month in the year that passed – and more importantly, how it affected us.
Best wishes, Su. I’m prepared to be optimistic about 2017 in spite of all the evidence to the contrary 🙂
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Thank you Joanne. I’m also trying to focus on the positive, look for the good I can do — and remember to pick my battles! I hope you and your boys are all well — injuries healing and health restored.
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A lovely post with beautiful photos and insights. Wish you a Happy New Year
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Thank you. Happy New Year to you.
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This is such a wonderful, lovely personal retrospective and I enjoyed so much rereading every entry again! It’s amazing how time passes by and somehow I realize this more forcefully reading another one’s thoughts than when recapitalizing my own. If that makes any sense… xxxxxxxx
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Thank you so much. I totally understand that; we are so enmeshed in day to day life that we can see the big picture best through other people. I went to a wedding on New Year’s Eve of a very old friend. I was surrounded by people I have known for 30 years. That those boisterous students I first met have now married, become parents (and even grandparents). That puts my life into perspective in the way you are talking about. xxxxx
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I have enjoyed different. Bloggers share their round up post / and for some reason I don’t remember indulging like this any other January – I did recall some review posts in years past – but nothing like what this last week has brought me –
Anyhow – the recreation on the bike – I kept comparing and so fun – love the shirt you found – mature replica of that onesie –
And I remember that sourdough starter post! Glad it made the list.
Lastly – thought I’d only listen to a few seconds of the first song – but what a song
“Made a place for you now…”
“Welcome home”
Damn! Good.
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Thanks so much Yvette. I’m glad you liked the song. It brings me to tears every time I listen to it — and it’s a few years old now.
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Hi again
remember – we blog readers of yours are a bit of your “whanau”
🙂
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